not-quite Journaling, 47
my frizzle sizzle
twists and curls
11/23/2022: I can’t stop whispering “my frizzle sizzle / twists and
curls” and cackling. I’m waiting to see my oncologist, some people in the
waiting room are giving me funny looks. So I, of course, add a little shoulder
dance to “my frizzle sizzle / twists and curls” chant, and cackle a bit
louder. Try it.
It’s fun. And if you get funny looks, cackle louder and be merry!
Storytelling is the storm that calms
11/28/2022: My OCD therapist and I have been working our way towards Exposure
and Response Prevention therapy. We’re taking it slowly—since
the last time I went right into it (with a different therapist), my
anxiety and nightmares and such… got so bad that I could barely function. We’re
doing seemingly small things: not listening to audiobooks 24/7, not ending all
my alarms with 13 or 31, not stirring my coffee 13 x 3… It’s not the most
comfortable of experiences, but I’m doing it (without screaming or hitting
something) and that’s a win. Also, when things get really bad, I can pull
myself out of the abyss by writing stories.
11/30/2022: Every now and again, poetry
is a tree which grows fire for leaves…
while refusing to get naked for autumn’s
pleasure. Yep, every tree around this beauty
has given in to autumn’s desire for bare limbs, but not this one; its
stubbornness blooms warm smiles out of my soul—a good thing on a rainy, chilly
I will be
in mind healing and growing
dance with time.
12/7/2022: I’ve been on physical therapy for my left and right
shoulders for a looooooooooooong time. I tell myself that torn flesh can take
months (even years) to mend. And that often does the trick. But when the
pain is relentless, when things throb and THROB… it’s much harder to remain patient. Lately, I’ve been
trying to do like a succulent, letting time and TLC do their thing… Now, if
only this f*cking
pain would let me get a full night sleep (or, mayhap, grow some new leaves ).
When I remember ‘comfortable’,
- Poets and Storytellers United--Friday Writings #56: Cozy.