not-quite Journaling, 35
“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the
stars.” ~ Oscar Wilde
black tulips--
real
or not, I still
love
the dark
5/5/2022: My terrace garden isn’t blooming yet, but the community
garden on the back of my building is bursting with tulips. My favorite of the
blooms is a dark purple one that looks almost black. I also enjoyed the sight
of a luscious (and sexy looking *cough*) pink, and a yellow one with
petals outlined in red. Spring rains have bejeweled the whole thing.
Broken
things
crack
heart
and will,
or
feed the soul
strength.
5/17/2022:
Yesterday, while on the phone with one
of my doctors discussing blood, exhaustion, pain tolerance, muscle and bone
loss, stubborn patients who refuse to take pain killers *cough*, the
importance of the occasional treat, the horrors of unrestful sleep, and NY
Comic Con 2022, one of my shelves collapsed under the weight of way too many
things, sending succulents and books and trinkets and dirt flying all over the
place.
After the shock subsided a bit, I noticed that my pine tree
succulent had been dismembered, a doll my friend (Gina) made me had been
decapitated, and a glass frog my MIL gave me lost two limbs. I took a few
breaths, appeased my doctor… and began tidying up the mess. Then, the sight of
my pine tree succulent, crushed under a tiny Oscar Wilde book, made me burst
into tears. Once the cleaning (and sobbing) was done, I noticed that my
pine tree succulent might not be completely gone (the wee stalk still held
half a leaf and the tiniest of shoots cradled in the axil).
It’s been a very hard week, physically and emotionally
speaking—the broken shelf, a burn on my arm (which is causing my lymphedema
to rebel), and an exasperating interaction with a relative seem to make
everything much worse. But my health will improve, the relative in question is
out of my life for good, the burn will heal, my Piano Man will repair the
shelf, and my plant will survive. Life goes on…
- for Poets and Storytellers United--Friday Writings #27: Watching and Witnessing.